I can't deal with my mom anymore?

I see 2 options: Get the hell outta that place ASAP, or stay and die. If that's the case, you'd have a better chance in a teen runaway center. Or if you REALLY can't stand living with your mother and don't care if she is heartbroken, call the cops and tell them how you are being abused and neglected. I really hope you solve this right away. The sooner the better. Good luck.